“After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be don in earth, as it is in heaven.”
Thy will be done.
When I first heard this song, I almost had to pull over, off of I-75 and cry. Unfortunately, I was in the middle lane & it wasn’t happening. I didn’t know who it was by, but shortly after, one of my social media friends told me that I had to listen to this song by Hillary Scott.
I knew immediately that this was one of the songs that I wanted to share with you ladies. Countless times, this situation has brought me speechless, to my knees. How is it that a good, GOOD Father would allow this? Sometimes I feel like the world is moving along & I am still stuck in the same spot hearing the words of the doctor, over and over. How am I supposed to remain hopeful & stand on God’s promises when THIS entire situation looks like the opposite of what He promised? I don’t understand.
How was it that this song could express how I feel SO well? If you have never experienced this type of pain, then you won’t understand the struggle it is to say, “Thy Will be done.” But, when you have to say.. God, Daddy- I know YOU are good; even though this HURTS. I don’t understand, my circumstances look BAD. They are the opposite of what your promises say. Dad, you said that you would give the barren woman children, but the doctor is saying no.
I’ll be the first to say that sometimes it IS hard to pray. It’s hard to proclaim God’s promises that he has good plans for you, when all you have is a broken heart and a whole lot of tears. In the words of Hilliary,
“When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words
Thy will be done…”
This song does take you to a raw, unfiltered, holding NOTHING back type of place. It can be difficult to open up those feelings & allow God to meet you where you are. However, I believe that in these moments, we see God. We get to feel his arms wrapping us in love. As we proclaim that his will be done, we are filled with his strength. As we cry (as you WILL cry) He is able to heal those wounds & carry that hurt. We are able to see HIM more and more. It’s a messy, yet beautiful thing.
So, have a listen. Even if you don’t have infertility— listen. I know that you have been in a situation where you didn’t understand, but had to say “Lord, I trust you.”
Until next week,
(I later learned that this song was written as her soul’s cry out to God after having a miscarriage. Here are her exact words. “She says miscarriages aren’t talked about much. “I also feel like there’s this pressure that you’re just supposed to be able to snap your fingers and continue to walk through life like it never happened,” she adds.
Scott poured her heartbreak into “Thy Will,” a gospel song that is the first single from her upcoming gospel album with her family. She wrote the song in the middle of “experiencing everything that comes with a miscarriage. So it was my most raw place that I could’ve ever been when this song truly poured out of me.”)
This makes it even more special to me, and I am eternally grateful for her obedience to glorify God in the middle of it all.