“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:13
I was riding with my hubby when this song came on the radio. We always listen to the same station (the FISH lol) so I know that I’ve heard this song a million and one times. But, just like every other Worship Wednesday song… something spoke to me when I heard the first line. The Holy Spirit immediately told me that this was the song for this week. It’s funny because about a week ago, I had a conversation with a sister in Christ who reminded me not to seek a “thing” over seeking God himself. And it’s so easy. It’s so easy to treat our Father like a genie in a bottle. It’s easy to expect him to answer our prayers the moment we pray them, and then we even get upset when his answer is wait. It’s SO easy to read off our list of needs and wants in our prayer time, but never spend one moment just sitting and seeking God. I want to encourage us, all of us that are believing God for something. No matter what the thing is… to see God’s face, his heart over his HAND. I want to encourage us to desire to me made more like Him, as much as we desire our “thing.” I want us to want HIM, more that that “thing.”
And that, my friend.. is the hard part. We have to be ok, knowing that God is enough. Even if we never get that “thing..” [Now this is not me telling you not to prayer and walk by faith..] But, I am telling you to check yourself and make sure that you aren’t idolizing a thing or desiring something more that you desire Christ. At the end of the day, we have to be okay with God’s plan and timing. The only way that we can do that is if we are seeking Him wholeheartedly and finding comfort in Him.
Sis, I want to hold my baby in my arms with everything in me. I will never stop praying for our promised children. But, as much as I want a child.. I have to be sure that I am desiring God more than an answered prayer. I have to be sure that I don’t just pray for our baby and get up. I have to be sure that I don’t make an idol out of motherhood/pregnancy. I have to be sure that I will STILL pray and seek God after He answers our prayer. And, I have to know that He’s still good, faithful and GOD even if the prayer goes unanswered. I STILL have eternal life, free from all pain, suffering and a brand new body because He sent His Son to die for ME. I STILL will serve Him, glorify Him and worship Him— even when the answer is wait.
“Before I bring my need, I will bring my heart.
Before I lift my cares, I will lift my arms.
I wanna know You, I wanna find You
In every season, In every moment
Before I bring my need, I will bring my heart
And seek you…”
Let this be the cry of your heart this week. Let this be the TRUE desire of your heart. There is nothing wrong with asking Abba for everything, and taking everything to him in prayer. Let’s just be sure that we don’t run to him like a sugar daddy. He deserves ALL of us. Not just a prayer when we want/need something.
“When You call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen. When you come looking for me, you’ll find me. Yes, When you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed.” Jeremiah 29:12-13
