I wanted to do a fertility “update” (so to speak) today, but then I realized many of you might not know the backstory. I believe that the backstory is equally as important, if not MORE important than the ending of a miraculous story. You see, what would the story of Samuel be, if we didn’t know the beginning? The backstory changes the way we look at the ending. We know to look at Samuel differently because we know what all Hannah had to endure to have him. We see her giving Samuel BACK to God as an ultimate sacrifice because we know that He was the child that she PRAYED for, the one that she WEPT for and PLEADED to God for.
I don’t know about ya’ll but… whew, that’s a strong woman to be able to give her (then) ONLY child to God. The child that she struggle to conceive. The child that she fasted and prayed for. You see Hannah had to give Samuel back to God, not knowing if that would be her ONLY child. It is the backstory that makes the ending SO miraculous. You see, most of the time a miracle occurs is when there is a backstory.
So, I wanted to share OUR backstory so that our journey makes sense. I know it seems like we JUST started our journey to growing our family, but the truth is that we are almost two years into “officially” TTC (trying to conceive.) This isn’t even counting the time when before we were married. We’ve always known that we wanted to have children together.
I’ve always struggled with irregular cycles and heavy periods. I tried several different pills, but all gave me horrible side effects. One in particular cause me to have severe hypertension. I had to stay in the ER until my blood pressure went down to something less likely to cause a stroke. Needless to say, I was not a good candidate for birth control. However, I did get the Depo shot twice in 2011. My period didn’t come on for a year. I went to two doctors and they both told me that it was ok.. I just had to wait for the birth control to leave my system. When my cycle FINALLY came back on, I bled for MONTHS. There was “nothing they could do.”
By this time I was a nursing student and I knew that something was not right with my body. I had maybe three cycles a year and they were extremely long and painful. I tried a different doctor that told me I should be on birth control (because of my age) despite the horrible side effects it gave me. I begged this doctor to do an ultrasound and more lab works, because all of my research led me to believe that I had PCOS. He would not do it. He gave me the option to take the birth control or not.
By this point we were married and of course everybody is asking “when are ya’ll going to have kids?” I mean, the pressure is ON once you get married. Never mind the year we were living together before. Lol. We’d moved, so I had the chance to fight with—visit another doctor. This time, I was told that I was too young to have PCOS AND that my thyroid was fine. I don’t know who determined that one lab test could determine if you had PCOS or not. This is when I learned how to be my own advocate and research! This doctor also prescribe birth